blah

bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.

holidays are blah.

just waking up at eleven.

text. online. facebook. tweet more. songs. youtube.

tweet more.

currently listening to the potential breakup song xD

so many lies swirling,
around you,
you're suffocating,
the empty shape in you,
steals your breath,
you're suffocating.

i'm the dayumn bored now.

you try your hardest to perfect your explanations
you lie until they've run out of questions.

currently. zombie by the cranberries.

pixie lott- mama do ((:

little black butterflies deep inside me.

our song by taylor swift just ended.

the show by lenka now (:

oh have i told you that i hate to dream?

blah. you get very tired when you wake up.

blah.

i want my money back just enjoy the show (:

cobra starship- the city is at war.

designer drugs and designer friends (:

ignore me if you see me cause i just don't give a shit. sunny i mean xD

the twilight is bruised and there you lie.

halo by beyonce.

standing in the light of your halo. (:

swing swing. all american rejects.

do you know what it feels like being alone? (:

the saturdays- issues

can't decide if i should stab you or kiss you.

see i'm so bloody bored.

we'll cry tonight, but in the morning we are new
stand in the sun, we'll dry your eyes.

that's not my name. the ting tings.

i just love (:

vanessa carlton- hands on me.

and if you don't believe me. just put your hands on me.

oh my supergirl ni she wo de baby girl xD

lazy liaw. cheers! (:

spilt screen sadness.

by the time I recognize this moment
this moment will be gone
but I will bend the light, pretend that it somehow lingered on

now we're back at the homestead
where the air makes you choke
and people don't know you
and trust is a joke
we don't even have pictures
just memories to hold
that grow sweeter each season
as we slowly grow old

back to you
it always comes around
back to you
i tried to forget you
i tried to stay away
but it's too late

over you
i'm never over
over you
something about you
it's just the way you move
the way you move me

i'm so good at forgetting
and I quit every game I've played
but forgive me love
i can't turn and walk away.

cheers! (:

keep me where the light is

"welcome to the real world", she said to me
condescendingly
take a seat
take your life

plot it out in black and white
well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
and the drama queens
i'd like to think the best of me
is still hiding
up my sleeve

they love to tell you
stay inside the lines
but something's better
on the other side

i wanna run through the halls of my high school

i wanna scream at the
top of my lungs
i just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just a lie you've got to rise above

so the good boys and girls take the so called right track
faded white hats
grabbing credits
maybe transfers
they read all the books but they can't find the answers
and all of our parents
they're getting older
i wonder if they've wished for anything better
while in their memories
tiny tragedies

they love to tell you
stay inside the lines
but something's better
on the other side.

bummer.

last week of school. awesome.
made lotsa new friends.

blog pretty much dead.
everythg pretty much dead too. xD

bret harrison hotness.

yer.

After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here's what I've decided. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own. But the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. And just when we think life and circumstance have forced us truly to become an adult, your mother says something like that. Or worse, something like that. We get bigger, we get taller, we get older. But, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in.

At some point you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy, that's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines... or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here's what I know. If you're willing to take a chance... the view from the other side... is spectacular.

Secrets can't hide in science. Medicine has a way of exposing the lies. Within the walls of the hospital the truth is stripped bare. How we keep our secrets outside the hospital, well that's a little different... One thing is certain, whatever it is we're trying to hide, we're never ready for when the truth gets naked. That's the problem with secrets... Like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything, until you don't have room for anything else. Until you're so full of secrets you feel like you're going to burst. The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open. Like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them. But the problem with secrets is, even when you think you're in control... You're not.

vanilla twilight.

the stars lean down to kiss you
and i lie awake and miss you
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
cause i'll doze off safe and soundly
but i'll miss your arms around me
i'd send a post card to you dear
cause i wish you were here.

i'll watch the night turn light blue
but it's not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly.
the silence isn't so bad
'til i look at my hands and feel sad
cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where your's fit perfectly.

i'll find repose in new ways
though i haven't slept in two days
cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
but drenched in vanilla twilight
i'll sit on the front porch all night,
waist-deep in thought
because when i think of you
i don't feel so alone
i don't feel so alone
i don't feel so alone

as many times as i blink
i'll think of you tonight
i'll think of you tonight

when violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
i'll taste the sky and feel alive again
and i'll forget the world that i knew
but i swear i won't forget you
oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
i'd whisper in your ear,
"oh, darling i wish you were here"

fireflies

you would not believe your eyes
if ten million fireflies lit up the world as i fell asleep
'cause they'd fill the open air
and leave teardrops everywhere
you'd think me rude but i'd just stand and stare

i'd like to make myself believe
that planet earth turns slowly
it's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
'cause everything is never as it seems

'cause i'd get a thousand hugs from ten thousand lightning bugs
as they tried to teach me how to dance
a foxtrot above my head
a sockhop beneath my bed
a disco ball is just hanging by a thread

i'd like to make myself believe
that planet earth turns slowly
it's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
'cause everything is never as it seems

when i fall asleep

leave my door open just a crack
(please take me away from here)
'cause i feel like such an insomniac
(please take me away from here)
why do i tire of counting sheep
(please take me away from here)
when i'm far too tired to fall asleep

to ten million fireflies
i'm weird 'cause i hate goodbyes
i got misty eyes as they said the farewell
but i'll know where several are
if my dreams get real bizarre
'cause i saved a few and i keep them in a jar

i'd like to make myself believe
that planet earth turns slowly
it's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
'cause everything is never as it seems

i'd like to make myself believe
that planet earth turns slowly
it's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
'cause everything is never as it seems

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
because my dreams are bursting at the seams

you.

they say it's hard to achieve
but can't a girl believe?

make a move, do the thing
turn around, strike a pose.

je t'adore ♥

wait for a sign, you're out of time.

(: rawr..hey.

when you're broken you will know,
on the inside.
do you feel like you'll explode,
on the inside?
and when you think that you've found hate
on the inside
don't forget we're all the same,
on the inside. (:

load up the flames and fire away
search without rescue
of all the times you looked out to sea
you never stepped in
why wait for me?

abandon ship.
fend for yourself
you've got that sinking feeling and nothing else.

priorities changes and hope fades away.

with the resources left in my heart, i'm afraid.

sorority row tonight! (:

quality time with bro tonight..
best thing about quality time with him is..
everything's on him :D

cheers!

amy's still the best.well not really :P

strength for the whole person.

hey all.i'm alright.

would you come around?
i'm dying to be found.
i'm always in the blue without you

far away that you are.
a jealous sky waits.
and i've been searching every star.
for a chance to twist my fate.

i gave my best.
but sometimes i must confess
my hope runs dry
and i draw lines.
it makes things harder.

caught in the pouring rain
a smile in your picture frame (:

don't you know you got me whenever you want me.
and in the blurring of all these colours,
it's yours i see
and i don't mind.

to rise is to fall
at every turn there's another wall.
is it truth or a lie.
the more i see the more i hide.

there's a day, there's a way to find just what i've been looking for.
in the sky i see light, there's still time now to get this right.

i love you.
more than you know.
and there's nothing in this world,
that could make me let go (:

cheers everyone!

thoughts.

when someone says you've changed, it's only because you've stopped living your life their way.

you're the clouds, you're the storms.
you're the reason i belong.
remember when we wished the stars
would come to earth and heal the scars?

have i lost my faith in you?
are we all forgotten too?

don't you break my heart again.

it's not what we used to feel, i wonder what went wrong.

for a wound there's an apology that has lost it's meaning.

yes, trying my best to not let this blog die.

cheers!

10to111009 (:

enough said..my ride's awesome (:
pictures are messy..don't blame me..
just lazy..and yeah that candid shit in toilet.
ah amy! (: haha
and i'm loving snsd, brown eyed girls, kara..you know.hahah.

well, pft.

dumbshit.
i'll try not to abandon this one again.

not my fault that i'm lazy.....hm.
maybe it's my fault but lalala :D

picts next post (:

and ah..i still love you.